Dear Light Seeker,

This world is so damn incredibly hard. Some days, breathing is all you can handle and it feels like no one is there just to simply hold you, to see you, to even just acknowledge you. There is no one there to shine the light on you when you most need it. You’ve tried a million times to dig yourself out of this hole, just to end up right back into it. The resounding internal questions and nothing people do seems to help. You’re grasping on straws just hoping something will pull you out of it…

I am there with you. People from all walks of life are there with you. Close your eyes and envision all of us in our own pain hugging you like we wish were held too. We are the strangers on the sidewalk saying hello in passing even though we just cried all morning because we feel lost too. We are there with you seeking the light. Your light with our light grows. We need you.

It is SO EASY to convince ourselves that it feels hopeless. Much therapy and listening deep within, I’ve learned that my brain is freaking lying to me during these times. Right now yours is lying to you. Our brain is constantly verifying what we are feeling. “See – I’m not good enough.” “See – I am not loved.” Or whatever the thought pattern is, but it’s a lie. You are good enough exactly as you are today. You are loved. We have to work to shift that negative thought pattern and to trick your brain back into positive light mode.

Think about the times when you are in light. We are connected with the world. We try new things that bring more light into our lives. But life is so damn incredibly hard that inevitably something will happen to push us back in the dark. Sometimes we don’t even know what it was that put us there, but we end up there. It’s our job now to work to not let ourselves sit into it for too long. So take this moment of dark and feel the feelings, sit with them as you are looking at a painting on the wall. They are there to show you something, even if we can’t understand it right now. Then take the micro steps back in the light. We need you.

This I can guarantee. The light will be back if you’re willing, whether small or big. Yet, it is up to you to grow it again. Go through the “During Dark Soothe One Moment at a Time” pages to fight for your light again. Take each moment literally one breathe at a time. Take the walk around the block even though it feels like the last freaking thing you want to do. Curse the whole way, tell whatever life scenario that has you in dark “YOU WILL NOT TAKE MY LIGHT.” I’ve been the crazy person screaming this in my house, but I feel a slight inkling better even if I didn’t want to. Do it, feel the inkling better. You deserve it because we need people like you who feel the hard days deeply. So much of our world is being filled with hardness. With this pain, you’re one of the chosen ones who feels deeply because it is you who will use that knowledge to better the days of those around you. It is your deep feelings that allows you to spread light to others because you know how important it is to have it. It is you who will remind others that these deep feelings are a part of how we experience true love and belonging in the world. And you, you are so valuable with each light spark you spread. You are the answer. So have your deep pain today, have it for the next week or months. But never forget, you’re light is needed more than ever before. Join hands with me when you’re ready and let us spread our light before the world is consumed by dark. We need you.